I just finished watching the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills when Taylor realizes that her husband is a complete bore. But it really broke my heart for this housewife to be married to a man that is no fun and seems like he doesn’t celebrate a lot. But what I analyzed from Taylor’s dilemma is that growing up starting from pre-k, we as human compare ourselves to the next person and evaluate our adequacy. Taylor looks around all of the husbands and that they are having so much fun and then compare her husband to them. Even in the episode she wishes that he would celebrate like everyone else. This post is not about the Real Housewives or Taylor and her husband relationship dynamic, but who we surround ourselves with is how we compare to our own self-worth. I haven’t hold back on this blog that I’m unemployed and I just realized this today, that I have been unemployed since 2009… it’s 2011. Being the age I am now and not really telling anyone my struggles with money and finding a job I haven’t socialized with many people. The people I tend to socialize with all have jobs and are on a legit career path compared to myself, I can’t get a job a McDonalds. Also many former classmates of mine assume that I’m doing BIG things now based on my knowledge in fashion and my previous internships… still no job. But regardless it’s hard to hear friends, former interns, classmates land jobs that I would just dream of and then when they ask me what I’m doing I make up a lie to not make it seem like I’m the biggest loser in the world. Sometimes I feel like I’m doing something wrong, is something wrong with me? Why I can’t get that opportunity that he/she did? I wish I knew the answers to the questions but I don’t and I will probably ever know when I will get the answers. But I do know one thing, this is not the first time I have felt this way because I was surrounded by other successful people. Growing up I remember comparing myself to others and questioning, why can’t I be friends with them? Where will i go to college? When am I going to get a boyfriend? When am I ever going to kiss or have sex? When will I get a job? Through life there are milestones you want to happen based on what and who is around you. It’s human nature to feel inadequate in some area of your life and wanting the desire to fill it.
