Hoping to Live the Life

I was watching The Devil Wears Prada today and I turned it off in disgust. why? Because I realize that speech that the dude was talking to Andy about in the fashion closet means completely and absolutely bull shit. Update on the job trail: Nothing!

how does it feel to be unappreciated?

How does it feel to be unwanted? These two questions just pop up in my mind. Maybe I’m depending on the feeling of belonging to having a job. Rightfully so, having a job there is a level of dependency of employee and employer. Honestly I would like to be at a point in my life where I’m doing something I’m great at and I’m happy. I don’t know if that means working in fashion, I really don’t know because no industry thinks I’m viable to  work for. 

Oh, two positions I applied for just rejected me. How awesome am I?!

I’m still somewhat speechless and clueless in what to do and how to move forward differently. I guess I have to leave it in gods hands.

Something has been on my mind for a while…

This hurts me thinking about, this hurts me writing about this, but what if Fashion is not for me or where I need to be?! It’s a sad thought, fashion is all i ever known, being creative is all i ever known. I’ve been thinking about this for a long because it seems like no one believes in me, no one. It hurts my feelings that many emails I’ve sent out to people just for it to be ignored. So many easy things and career opportunities falls into people’s laps, except for mine. Absolutely nothing has been working out for me in the matter of years and I don’t think anything will. Yes I am a pessimitic! I rather be a pessimitic then being optimistic and having my hopes crushed in positivity, it doesnt make much sense otherwise. I’m still going to be applying for jobs fashion and non-fashion positions anywhere i land is fate i guess. At this point I need a job to start a life for a myself and to make money.  Oh well, until next time.